I have a fear of open water

R. Decker
2 min readJun 2, 2020
Photo by Meta Zahren on Unsplash

I sat watching each individual wave begin to form, swell up, crest, and crash as rhythmically as my own heart beating inside the beautiful machine that was my body.

Today my brain was not working right. Somewhere vaguely on the other side of the earth, barely visible on the horizon were all of the ambitions, hopes, and dreams that I could never allow myself to fulfill.

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